One of my friend used the following signature for his email footnote:
Today, is a saturday night. This week has been more than just a week. I saw couple of night outs - which have faded out since college days. Of course, sometime back in my working days - I used to stay late and finish work. But, things did not last this long - because I never felt that compulsive responsibility. As this is academics, you feel bad when you screw up due to mis-management. So, perhaps let the oil burn a little more - it just reminds of those days when things used to shine bright till the morning dawn.
Next week is going to be still more hectic. Oh! did I say hectic - thats an understatement. I would make my first trip out of Gainesville - a paid one of course. So, I am all excited to go to New York where I am supposed to give an interview and perhaps as friends plan - stay a while and enjoy the place. I can feel jitters in my stomach every time I think about the trip - but I convince myself saying that this is just a beginning. Many more are yet to come. This mind is not just waste matter - some gray cells are worth the price.
So, would an interview make it hectic. Nope! Nada! I have given so many of them that the questions often don't surprise me - if they save those "Out of the Box" ones. For those types - I have an honest answer - given time I can produce equally worthy results to your satisfaction ; but at this moment my best answer may not average well with your expectations. I may digress with things which are way beyond imagination while coming out with suggestions which may seem dumb to incorporate. I am not saying I lack creativity - all I am is a lazy thinker.
Next, to add to the interview - I have a quiz, two assignments, two projects and a midterm lined up in ten days. Is it not a red carpet for me - a bloodshed in waiting!
So, why the title reads multiplicity - many of times when you are alone, you feel like talking to yourself. When you are with your self for some more time - you start retrospection. You go back in time, recollect fond memories, shed some tears, laugh off key moments and wish you had more of them. You then digress more and ask what is WRONG in the present moment. Why are you unhappy? Your mind gets divided into two halves. You start judging yourself with the popular yardstick of successful and unsuccessful people around you. You start assuming things on their part as how they have made their lives lively or miserable and what is common between them and you. Somewhere in the middle of retrospection, you start contemplating about your future. And you dig down deep into the rabbit hole for hours - tumbling like Alice, whatever happened to the wonderland!
I hear this song - "Numbered Days" by Eels/Shootenanny often. The song makes me feel to long more. Like every passing day is taking something away from me and I have very few moments left to cherish. I hear it when I am alone ; in a mood to complain for something or the other.
I thought I would quote some lines here : but I could not pick which ones I should show up here. So here's the link. Do listen to the song if you get a chance (It belongs to soft rock genre and available in rhapsody).
So, its a saturday night. I missed out on my weekly badminton practice due to the schedule I have. But, if I see people around me - I am still having a lot of time to myself. If I can write this huge a blog, I won't lie that I spend time in useless stuffs too. But perhaps everybody is not built in the same type. We need different catalysts to keep our lives going. To say that one's catalyst is bad is putting a wrong argument.
So - fixed in all the mind battles, what is Joyesh going to do? Breathe in and start fighting the lonely battle or ruin everything and let life take its course? Is it the time to say "Thats it, Its all over, I'm through .... Counting Numbered Days".
<yawn>
<more yawn followed by a deep sleep>
<I have been watching MATRIX a lot these days than medically prescribed>
Every man is a hero is his dreams
- Sigmund Freud.
Today, is a saturday night. This week has been more than just a week. I saw couple of night outs - which have faded out since college days. Of course, sometime back in my working days - I used to stay late and finish work. But, things did not last this long - because I never felt that compulsive responsibility. As this is academics, you feel bad when you screw up due to mis-management. So, perhaps let the oil burn a little more - it just reminds of those days when things used to shine bright till the morning dawn.
Next week is going to be still more hectic. Oh! did I say hectic - thats an understatement. I would make my first trip out of Gainesville - a paid one of course. So, I am all excited to go to New York where I am supposed to give an interview and perhaps as friends plan - stay a while and enjoy the place. I can feel jitters in my stomach every time I think about the trip - but I convince myself saying that this is just a beginning. Many more are yet to come. This mind is not just waste matter - some gray cells are worth the price.
So, would an interview make it hectic. Nope! Nada! I have given so many of them that the questions often don't surprise me - if they save those "Out of the Box" ones. For those types - I have an honest answer - given time I can produce equally worthy results to your satisfaction ; but at this moment my best answer may not average well with your expectations. I may digress with things which are way beyond imagination while coming out with suggestions which may seem dumb to incorporate. I am not saying I lack creativity - all I am is a lazy thinker.
Next, to add to the interview - I have a quiz, two assignments, two projects and a midterm lined up in ten days. Is it not a red carpet for me - a bloodshed in waiting!
So, why the title reads multiplicity - many of times when you are alone, you feel like talking to yourself. When you are with your self for some more time - you start retrospection. You go back in time, recollect fond memories, shed some tears, laugh off key moments and wish you had more of them. You then digress more and ask what is WRONG in the present moment. Why are you unhappy? Your mind gets divided into two halves. You start judging yourself with the popular yardstick of successful and unsuccessful people around you. You start assuming things on their part as how they have made their lives lively or miserable and what is common between them and you. Somewhere in the middle of retrospection, you start contemplating about your future. And you dig down deep into the rabbit hole for hours - tumbling like Alice, whatever happened to the wonderland!
I hear this song - "Numbered Days" by Eels/Shootenanny often. The song makes me feel to long more. Like every passing day is taking something away from me and I have very few moments left to cherish. I hear it when I am alone ; in a mood to complain for something or the other.
I thought I would quote some lines here : but I could not pick which ones I should show up here. So here's the link. Do listen to the song if you get a chance (It belongs to soft rock genre and available in rhapsody).
So, its a saturday night. I missed out on my weekly badminton practice due to the schedule I have. But, if I see people around me - I am still having a lot of time to myself. If I can write this huge a blog, I won't lie that I spend time in useless stuffs too. But perhaps everybody is not built in the same type. We need different catalysts to keep our lives going. To say that one's catalyst is bad is putting a wrong argument.
So - fixed in all the mind battles, what is Joyesh going to do? Breathe in and start fighting the lonely battle or ruin everything and let life take its course? Is it the time to say "Thats it, Its all over, I'm through .... Counting Numbered Days".
<yawn>
<more yawn followed by a deep sleep>
<I have been watching MATRIX a lot these days than medically prescribed>
